Saturday, 31 July 2010.

for a fresh dose of unoriginality:

Roses are red

Violets are blue

All my base

Are belong to you

{ 10:27 pm }

Friday, 30 July 2010.

today I made an idiot of myself.

the more things change, the more they stay the same.

{ 12:50 am }

Thursday, 29 July 2010.

today I am depressed in the sort of blank numb depression characterized by absence of emotion.

my eyesight is a bit grainy, too. the lighting here is not optimal.

and I am either being an idiot or a non-idiot, depending on how you look at it. given that there isn't even a one way of looking at it.

still can't find Wicked.

sad.

I found a way to bypass my computer's starhub safesurf.

I've been spending the evening reading Wicked fanfiction.

I suppose it's my new fandom.

although it would be better if I could actually find the damn book.

and I debase myself for nothing; I bet you like watching me crawl.

one question haunts and hurts, too much- too much to mention.

we certainly like to tie ourselves in knots in our search for the poetic.

(or is it the beautiful?)

at any rate, some things are universal.

dear me, I've gone from numb emo to emoting emo in the span of a blogpost.

I blame Yoru-senpai.

I miss people.

Individual people, sure, but most of all just people in general.

I feel disconnected.

as someone told me lately, everyone deserves to die.

sadded.

{ 10:31 pm }

Wednesday, 28 July 2010.

or just seeking attention?

Eclipse wasn't showing anymore, but we watched Inception, after the necessary running around looking for each other because we had gone to completely different buildings.

Naomi turned up too. =D

we didn't buy enough popcorn though.

and then we ran into Yoru-senpai when waiting for the bus. I hadn't really been expecting to see him, even though Naomi had said he might turn up. *shrugs*

then it turned out we were waiting for the bus on the wrong side of the road anyway.

as for today, absolutely nothing has happened.

the current biggest problem is figuring out how to get the present Russell left here back to him. I should have passed it to Ri-chan to pass to her sister to drop off at 309 or something. D=

mildly depressed.

no one mourns the wicked.

{ 7:11 pm }

Monday, 26 July 2010.

I don't know, what about your blanket rejection of something intrinsic to me is dehumanizing and really, really painful.

is that not logical enough for you?

"stop it, it hurts?"

party was a success.

thank you everyone. =D

am slightly depressed, peculiarly enough.

hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow..

(watching Eclipse and Inception with Ri-chan. I think. yay.)

no nobody is perfect but one tries to have faith in humanity.

yes? no?

and whatever you are doing I want no part of it.

and it's not quite late and not quite sad and I am feeling vaguely melancholic.

and very slightly betrayed, which is more my fault than anything.

yes, I do get carried away.

but what's your excuse this time?

I feel crumpled.

because you are metaphorically slapping me in the face.

I am not a chess piece, and I don't think you realise it.

and your ego and your idea of a good idea are both too painfully prickly to be anywhere near.

(also, having a hidden agenda or subconscious plan does not absolve you or your behavior in the least. just saying.)

and yay Ri-chan, because she is awesome, and I talk to her far less than I should.

{ 9:21 pm }

Friday, 23 July 2010.

and no one in the land of oz

no wizard that there is or was

woots.

msn failure.

I like the idea of playing with themes.

like weaving them through a book.

do you think the great authors like write down ahead of time all the themes they want to bring up?

or does it just come naturally?

seems to me a lot more artists are taught to be artists than writers taught to be writers.

of course, this is personal observation and not actually meant to be taken as fact or used for reference.

I probably don't even need to insert a disclaimer.

gah msn failure.

the bloody program refuses to do absolutely anything at all.

headdesk.

if you can't find a partner, use a wooden chair!~

better or worse in context?

don't mind me, I'm just an idiot.

I like names.

some of them are pretty.

I have this feeling that I will be blogging for a while now, because MSN is still refusing to work.

so tragic.

and, naturally, I be suffering from boredom.

actually, having time is interesting. one can read up on various topics online.

especially when msn is NOT WORKING.

*stabs*

also I don't like texting because whenever I use it to try and make a point I end up with an incoherent piecemeal 4-message-sized ramble or something.

as you can imagine, I don't used it to try and make many points.

(I just think you're depraved.)

no actually I'm just bored and high off noxiously coloured stiff marshmallow-esque candy.

yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay.

(I'm awesome! I'm awesome! I'm awesome! et cetera et cetera ad nauseam.)

lovely. back to latin, I see.

(et cetera, ad nauseam, quid pro quo, et tu, veni vidi vici, ad hominem, ad hoc, augustus caesar, kyrie eleison, homo sapiens, et cetera et cetera et cetera ad nauseam redux.)

no, I can't speak much Latin, can I. (cerebellum!)

Windows Messenger, thou blue penguin-shaped traitor! Unhand thy foul scarlet X and take up the verdant shield! Unveil thy banner of options upon my right-click!

ooh I think it's working.

awesome.

today I feel like talking about the Cult of the Individual.

see, a long time ago in the USA they asked a bunch of kids whether they thought they were important, and about 12% of them said yes. then recently they asked another bunch of kids, and 87% of them proclaimed their importance. or something. what, you were expecting proper data?

(sorry. D= )

but anyway.

this....is highlighting a trend in mentality. about how any one person is so much more likely to be self-centered or generally see themselves as important.

a lot of people think it's a bad thing, and to some degree I guess it is.

but, more objectively, it's a change.

it's not necessarily a change for the worse or a change for the better.

just a change in mindsets.

....I forgot why I wanted to bring this up, and damn that sounds so retarded to write.

anyway.

meh.

msn still not working.

time for another headdesk.

lost my innocence,

don't know where it went, baby

don't you love me, don't you love me

I have a feeling that I've sort of lost track of this post.

(self-righteous piece of dirt!)

I hope you're happy now.

{ 8:37 pm }

sometimes one is reading a newspaper and the contents just slaps one in the face.

metaphorically, that is.

I have ranted enough lately, I'm afraid, to make anything more pushing the boundaries of politeness, so I don't plan on elaborating.

but seriously?

it hurts.

{ 11:22 am }

Thursday, 22 July 2010.

Cuando el cielo te torna gris
Las luces no entienden qué hora es.
Sentir así no es la cuestión
No distingo el corazón de la razón
Todo ilusión.

{ 11:18 pm }

Today I completed a survey and somebody gave me a keychain.

That, I believe, is what is commonly referred to as karma. Or maybe just the stick-and-carrot effect with an invisible carrot. Or maybe just because I'd feel bad about saying no.

(yes, I'm that spineless. =_________________=)

oh welll.

went to the garden show at Suntec!!!

and and and it is very prettyyy and when I grow up I want a house made of a shipping container and a big garden too. never mind that any house made of a shipping container could probably fit right into my current bedroom.

although we would never get it to fit through the door anyway.

maybe if we took it apart and assembled it inside!!

(now I want my own shipping-container room-inside-a-room. the idea is so awesome. xD)

I hate those large aedes-looking mosquitoes.

you'd think they'd have the decency to get squished and die, but noooooo.

{ 8:39 pm }

Wednesday, 21 July 2010.

I wonder how much there is that I am missing out on.

and whether I ought to care more about it.

(Why do 'I couldn't care less' and 'I could care less' mean the same thing anyway? So weird. Like 'regardless' and 'irregardless' which I didn't think was a word but the spellcheck seems to like just fine.)

I have ADD, so don't mess with me~

'cause I'm young, and I'm easily bored~~

yay The Pretty Reckless.

amazing. the spellcheck doesn't like 'yay' either. Yay.

(or 'spellcheck', but that isn't really a word anyway.)

{ 11:53 am }

Monday, 19 July 2010.

today I cleaned up an unused fishtank, because I asked my mother if I could go buy one and she said we had one lying around already; I don't know why.

do you think it's rude to give second-hand fishtanks? D=

(it's around 30x3ox60, I think...)

{ 5:14 pm }

el viernes te olvido yo.

how odd, I didn't get to talk to anyone last night, and now I feel ever-so-slightly emo.

Although I do have to talk to Vivian.

hmm.

bleh.

respondez sil-vous-plait.

how political.

I'm not really sure how coherent I generally am, and whether this post reflects that norm. I haven't read my own blog posts since I changed blog skins-- it's harder to make out the words. too much trouble. xD

wonder if that's a sign I ought to change the skin.

nah.

it's cute.

{ 1:13 pm }

just got back from Max's dance competition.

which ended at approximately 1AM. no joke.

*dies of tiredness*

and he was awesome, and lots of people were awesome, and gah I can barely type I am completely out of it I'm afraid, and there were these two people and they did a very awesome and complex and interesting dance and I swear if I had a recording I could write a paper on it but the state of my thoughts at the moment is such that I am for all intents and purposes not of sound mind.

staying up till 1am at home is not the same as staying up till 1am outside.

how peculiar.

{ 1:14 am }

Sunday, 18 July 2010.

isn't it awkward when people whom one doesn't recognize suddenly recognize one?

and one has to be tactful in asking people who the hell that was, or everyone will stare at one.

not that I would know any such thing from personal experience.

and lol at politics. D=

at least one can laugh at one's sort-of-predicament

which I think involves feeling extremely guilty for a while.

anyway!

large bottles of tea!

they are like....a tradition!

(I swear I will not listen to Awa and lock everyone into the washroom.)

{ 12:11 pm }

Saturday, 17 July 2010.

hmm.

it is late and I do not have that much to say.

the play was nice. yayyyy Naomi.

lots of blank space!!

no, no, no. do not rant. do not shoot. put your hands up and walk forwards slowly. drop the gun. i said, drop the gun.

why don't you bleed when I hurt you

it's late enough that one can afford not to make sense.

goodnight?

{ 10:21 pm }

Friday, 16 July 2010.

thanks for bringing the launcher.

we have lift-off!!

(what can we do better; when will we know how)

leaving now. meh-ness.

{ 7:26 pm }

Thursday, 15 July 2010.

so, never try to be a detective.

not now, not ever.

seriously.

no matter what.

chances are you will simply make a tremendous idiot of yourself.

and, having made a tremendous idiot of myself, that is all I have to say about the matter.

seriously.

there go my dreams of becoming a Private Investigator.

meanwhile, my Internet is failing something awful, and I feel generally depressed, in a sort of one-step-out-of-reality kind of way. Hi, I'm Edith, I used to exist.

but I don't anymore.

I'm still depressed, though. D=

trying to find a way to live my own life while keeping up with everyone else's; can't wait for the RGS play. is it bad that all the highlights now are tied to other people?

(this is no good. it really really isn't.)

watching eclipse with Ri-chan on Monday, I think. I think.

yes, it is bad that I don't know.

I feel deaded; sort of emo and empty and generally, well, dead. and an idiot. did I mention an idiot? (please, let's go back to a world where we can all laugh at ourselves, it's so hard online.)

yes, it is all my fault that the first one died.

and all I've really come to know is that I belong to what is altogether the wrong world.

none, that is.

but still.

it be ten-o-clock and I be suffering from Internet fail.

yay.

yayety yayety yayety yay.

and then there is the personal confusion over certain issues anyway.

although strangulation successful, I suppose.

who knows why.

maybe I'm still stranded on someone else's reflection.

time to discard our dreams, people. we only have so long to live.

the present is cruel; let's think about the past. the past past. past tense. long time ago. or at least before I took a break from reality.

(I want to break something.)

maybe I will kill an icecube or two, and they'll remind me of you.

and in a similar vein:

truth time: what's the craziest thing you ever did because you liked someone?

no, you can't say 'someone'.

I am tired.

not tired as in tired, but not tired as in anything in particular.

Just tired in general, I suppose.

(no, my aim is not to be coherent. if my aim were to be coherent I would be coherent.)

or maybe not.

sometimes I fail.

we all fail sometimes. tests, exams, communication, life.

sometimes everything falls on top of one and one feels like taking a short break to die.

{ 9:48 pm }

suddenly I hope I was wrong.

because nobody deserves to be any more sad than they already are.

you in particular.

(stop emoing!!)

and meh, today is a Thursday, and I think I am going to hide under the bed or something until the afternoon. Or all week. (But the play is on Saturday! =D)

(someone tell me where to buy a large fishtank. >D)

....talk about dodecahedrons.

{ 11:53 am }

Wednesday, 14 July 2010.

Why are you taking yet another shuffle quiz?
Victim of Circumstance- Joan Jett

(Clearly, it isn't my fault.)

What's currently in your fridge?

Tik Tok- Ke$sha

(does that mean a clock?)

Your biggest nightmare?
Bury Me Alive- We Are The Fallen

(on second thoughts, please don't.)

What place would you like to visit?
Not A Love Song- Uh Huh Her

(who wants to visit love songs anyway?)

A reason to commit suicide?
Love Is All Around- Joan Jett

(....)

Why are we here?
Speechless- Lady Gaga

(right, no answer.)

Something you never dared to say to anyone...?
Estoy Aqui- Shakira

('I'm here'. uh, that's not so scary to say, is it?)

One thing the world really doesn't need?
I'm The Only One- Melissa Etheridge

(so...I'm the only thing the world doesn't need.)

What's your biggest unfulfilled wish?
Their Cell- Girl in a Coma

(this one I don't understand..)

If you could invent something, what would it be?
American Idiot- Green Day

(...)

The last thing you say before you die?
Mercy- Glee

(=______=)

What's your destiny?
Inevitable- Shakira

(so my destiny is inevitable?)

What do you do when you're alone in an elevator?
Say So- Uh Huh Her

("I am alone in an elevator!!")

Why do people go fishing?
I Am Not A Robot- Marina and the Diamonds

(so how do you expect me to have the answer?)

What would you do with your slaves?
Alejandro- Lady Gaga

(I was going to ask how one does Alejandro, but that sounds...wrong.)

Is there a man on the moon?
Hello- Evanescence

(Hi, Mr. Man-In-The-Moon!!)

What does hell look like?

Before The Dawn- Evanescence

(so that would be...nighttime?)

About what would you like to write a book?
Misguided Ghosts- Paramore

(sounds interesting!!)

The best thing ever is...?
Losing My Religion- Alanis Morisette

(...indeed.)

Why did the chicken cross the road?
Rocket- Goldfrapp

(it was...on a rocket?)

Why do you listen to music?
Boulevard of Broken Dreams- Green Day

(I....don't think so?)

What do you do when you're alone and nobody's watching?
Yell- Ikimonogakari

(makes sense!)

Why are other people so stupid?
Paparazzi- Lady Gaga

(right, blame it all on the tabloid photographers or whatever.)

Last thing you ate?
Mona Lisa- All-American Rejects

(personally I think it was a cracker.)

Why is grass green?
I Miss You Like Crazy- Natalie Cole

(so clearly I'm in no state to answer that question either.)

Your phone is ringing, but who's on the other end?
She Wolf- Shakira

(so maybe I shouldn't pick up the phone?)

What should you stop doing?
Mona Lisa- All-American Rejects

(I am not doing the Mona Lisa.)

A word of advice to the readers of this quiz?
Dance With Me- Uh Huh Her

(or not.)

and and and and

AHAHAHAHA I WAS RIGHT.

{ 11:46 am }

Tuesday, 13 July 2010.

yay wordplay?

(no we all know I'm reading too much into it anyway)

meh. bored.

oh you're very very busy but I'm very very dead

and you won't stop yelling at me 'cause I won't get out of bed

oh you're very very busy but I'm very very dead

and you won't stop trying to tell me that it's all inside my head

how morbid. D=

{ 8:10 pm }

Monday, 12 July 2010.

I don't miss the school per se, but as of right now I really miss the people. Most of them.

Thus, I am planning a birthday party. For myself. I feel so self-centered. But you see, it presents another problem, because first there is Ri-chan and Awa and Naomi and Shasha and Onion-san, and then there is Russell and Isaac and Kuo Xuan and Cyrus et al, both of which are perfectly good groups of friends, and then there is Yoru-senpai and Vivian who sort of fit into both groups, and then there is all the people I forgot whom I ought to have listed, because I'm sure they exist, and bringing together two groups of people who mostly don't know each other is not always the best of ideas. Here's hoping it all works out, and that I can find something for Russell's birthday in time. (A large fishtank! >D)

And yay, Spain won the world cup, and I had frozen yogurt for dinner to celebrate. From Sogurt, in case you were wondering. ^^

It is almost eleven. Almost almost almost eleven, and I'm alternating between feeling fuzzy yay yay yay for no logical reason (yay writing) and emo because of how little difference one really manages to make to people on the whole. Like, never am I made aware of how irrelevant I really am until I go out of my way to find out, and somehow that makes it worse?

Today Max from ice-skating called and I thought he was Julia. I think that's a sign I'm sleep-deprived or something. =_____=

I...am so bored staying around at home. But I might be watching Despicable Me with Yoru-senpai tomorrow. Which is a good thing, and has sparked me to decide that maybe all I really need to do is get out of the house more. Meet up with people more. Who knows, it might be fun.

sometimes it seems to me that all anyone really wants (needs?) is validation.

{ 10:51 pm }

Sunday, 11 July 2010.

I...have a Theory. That is the kind of Theory with a capital T which tends to spring up when bored people have too much time on their hands. No, I will not elaborate. We all know I have busybody tendencies as it is; suffice to say it has far too little to do with my own affairs and far too much with others'.

And with a depressing soap-opera-like plot twist, the past few days have found me starting to like someone I'd much rather, you know, not like. All this love business is far too troublesome. (don't I sound old and jaded? >D)

And I am sitting here happily admiring the card 309 gave me, because, you know, it is awesome. Yay.

{ 10:10 pm }

Saturday, 10 July 2010.

you know how it is when you read someone's blog and address something to 'you' and you know it's not directed to you? awkward....

(that 'you' above is directed to everyone who could possibly come across this blog. just in case.)

I'm sorry I'm an idiot; I'm sorry I was right.

I'm sorry I get carried away.

I'm sorry I keep putting my foot in my mouth,

and I am not talking to you. >D

anyway. I am hypersensitive lately, and not in a good way.

{ 8:13 pm }

Yesterday's class outing/farewell party was awesomeeee. Thank you everybody. =D

Although I must admit it was slightly depressing being the worst bowler in the entire class. D=

But the ice skating more than made up for it!! Except then I came down with an acute case of sorrow of the head.

And the Truth or Dare was...illuminating, to say the least. *coughcough* and very interesting. Therefore, we should have another class outing soon. Yay. =)

Someone send me the photos.

this is ripped from Naomi's blog

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Not necessarily, but some degree of cuteness is important.

2. Smart?
Yes.

3. Preferred age?
My age. Roughly.

4. Preferred height?
Not much taller than me.

5. How about sense of humor?
Absolutely necessary.

6. How about piercings?
As long as they're cute. (Do I come across as superficial? D=)

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Preferable.

8. Pink hair?
Why nottt?

9. Mushy or no?
I can be mushy enough for two.

10. Thin or fat?
Not unhealthily thin and not unhealthily fat....

11. Skin colour?
No preference..?

12. Long hair or short hair?
No preference.

13. Plastic or metal?
What does this have to do with a person?

14. Smells good?
That, or no smell at all...

15. Smoker?
Nahh.

16. Drinker?
Nope.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
No preference.

18. Muscular?
Not really.

19. Plays piano?
Why not?

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Yesss.

21. Plays violin?
...why not?

22. Sings very well?
No preference.

23. Vain?
You mean like the kind of person who never stops asking if their outfit makes their butt look big?

24. With glasses?
No preference.

25. With braces?
No preference...

26. Shy type?
As long as they talk loud enough for me to hear. ^^

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Either.

28. Active or passive?
No preference...

29. Tight or bomb?
I don't get it.

30. Singer or dancer?
No preference..

31. Stunner?
These questions are a little superficial, no?

32. Hiphop?
Uh, whatever...

33. Earrings?
Sure.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
Probably not.

35. Dimples?
No preference.

36. Bookworm?
No preference.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
As long as the letters are well-written...

38. Playful?
Yeahh.

39. Flirt?
No preference.

40. Poem writer?
Why not?

41. Serious?
As long as seriousness does not preclude a sense of humour..

42. Campus crush?
No preference.

43. Painter?
Yeah..

44. Religious?
Not overly so.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
No preference.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
Probably not.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
No. I'd be scared. D=

48. Loyal or faithful?
Both.

49. Good kisser ?
...

50. Loves children??
No preference.

I.....am bored.

{ 7:43 pm }

Tuesday, 6 July 2010.

Yay.

Since the last time I posted, approximately nothing much has happened.

Brilliant.

I am, I am, I am a zombie.

(how profound.)

So much for that, then.

{ 3:48 pm }

Sunday, 4 July 2010.

It's a beautiful day today.

It's also the 4th of July, which is something I believe one is supposed to make a big deal about, so we're going to eat at Brewerkz tonight.

Apart from that, I've just finished a sheet of math olympiad stuff, and would really like nothing better than to go back to sleep.

Such is life.

(amazing that I still have holiday. >D)

It's actually a little depressing, though; the whole did-I-make-the-right-choice?, did-I-screw-up?, is-this-okay? business, but not enough to be painful, and besides I'm looking forwards to my farewell party. =)

I haven't been online lately. D=

Funny how one can have all the time in the world and still no time to do something.

meh.......

...I should call Ri-chan.

{ 2:45 pm }