Wednesday, 29 September 2010.

yesterday was a very awkward and not-so-nice day in which I had a PTSD episode from someone's schoolbag hitting me in the head. unfun. let us not go into that.

I think I owe everyone an apology for having a dead blog for so long. All I can really say is that tests and annoying things in that general league have been taking up far too much of my time....

(and yesterday I was a ghost with a green face and ears and neck and hands and feet and a flapping white sheet for theatre. that part was awesome.)

also also art has been going very well. and english. and bio. and really everything except calculus and physics for which I have missed a test each which is very very annoying and will require extensive make-up work at some point.

not like theatre which literally required extensive makeup work. in GREEN.

*is shot over bad pun*

oh well. still not in school yet, still resting. doctor's appointment for tomorrow morning. house next door still in a depressing state of nonexistence in the form of being magically transformed to orange dust and sat on by various noisy machines.

if I were to have a dog, I would like to name it Quigby.

EDIT: for some reason the timestamp is screwed, but this is a Thursday post. =)

{ 4:01 pm }

Wednesday, 22 September 2010.

today's GSA meeting got cancelled after the fact because nobody turned up.

since the president forgot to email everyone to tell them there was one. ;___;

whereupon i went to the library where there were all these student singer-songwriters performing. including one with a song about how his girlfriend left him for another girl. .____.

whereupon i went to math tuition

after which i went to....a synagogue. my mother's pianist friend invited us to celebrate Sukkot.

also during school I spent 50 minutes in the nurse's office and missed most of english because of the dimness in art for optimum shade and stuff shook me up a bit. =(

what else..... i have like this blanket heart-ness for people who play guitar. some of them anyway. SO AWESOME.

meanwhile!!!! bio test tomorrow. ;_____;

also, there is something wrong with my nose. =O

{ 9:34 pm }

Monday, 20 September 2010.

bleh.

you i do not like.

{ 10:02 pm }

hi everyone.

today was quite a nice day.

I must take back my rant about the torrenting because it turns out it was on Wednesday too or something. ^^

and meanwhile everything is beautifully okay except for my rubbish history essay grade. =(

amazingly though I think I did well on the mcq quiz which means that all will be right again with my grade by next class.

I am being kind of obsessive over my grade, I think.

my sister and I are having a resurgence of the perennial Music Wars.

in which I blast stuff really loudly and she blasts stuff really louder and I win because rock is louder than Beethoven's concertos for the french horn.

I just hope she never develops a fondness for heavy metal or I will be in trouble.

{ 8:48 pm }

Sunday, 19 September 2010.

to everyone whom I was talking to on MSN.

my internet is failing so bad it is all I can do to fit this post in during one of its intermittent bursts of non-failure.

sorry for vanishing all of a sudden after not being online for so long, I guess.

;_____;

{ 10:55 pm }

edith is a sad person right now.

{ 10:31 pm }

today I am mildly annoyed at life.

also I think my subconscious hates me. =(

*is unhappy*

english test tomorrow, wish me luck. ._____.

i haven't been on MSN lately due to lack of energy. someone save me from turning into a reverse hikikomori. D=

{ 9:57 pm }

Saturday, 18 September 2010.

sometimes one sets out to write about an abstract concept and ends up rambling incomprehensibly.

like things that make one want to shred paper into tiny, tiny, tiny pieces.

maybe it's just me who wants to shred paper.

i wish i had had more time.

or even more paper.

or that everything were okay to start with but I just sort of shredded part of the inside of my lip with my teeth by accident which probably means I ought to mentally change the subject before I go absolutely ravingly mad.

if I were a good writer, I would be able to describe how I feel right now without trivialising the subject matter about which I am upset.

but I am not, really, so I will just say that I am currently not a happy person.

(the current situation, presented via factual statements:)

i. We are doing monologues for theatre class.

ii. There was one from the Laramie Project, which I read because I thought I might want to choose that one to learn.

iii. It gave me a lump in the throat, an urge to shred paper and an inability to finish reading the monologue.

iv. I chose a humorous piece done by a ghost with a British accent.

fin.

{ 9:41 pm }

Friday, 17 September 2010.

today afternoon was so awesome

at first we couldn't find a spot to set up

and then for half an hour only about 3 people got cupcakes at all

and we were all AAAGH NOBODY IS BUYING CUPCAKES

but then after a while business really sped up

the people at the stall next door were advertising for us too

and then somebody got this random guy to play guitar and sing cupcake-advertising songs.

"Rainbow cupcakes are so gay~~~"

"Jesus loves gay people, so buy a cupcake!~~~"

that was really awesome. and hilarious. just the whole thing.

a lot of people I know bought cupcakes.

but then this guy at our stall asked this random guy to come over and buy some and he was all like NO WAY and then it was kind of offensive and kind of very depressing, but meh.

also there were lots and lots of parents and lots and lots of people buying cupcakes but only one or two parents buying cupcakes for their kids. and a lot of them sort of walked past and glanced at us and then looked away and obtained kind of wooden smiles on their faces.

and it is half-past-eleven so my typing is not exactly the most coherent kind of thing ever invented, so I shall fast forwards to the girls' volleyball game in which I do believe we got owned. the lights went out just before it was going to end and there was much uproar and flashing lights and music and by then Ri-chan and Isaac and Russell had joined me and we all went to the auxiliary gym and watched the last few minutes of the game and then went off to Swensen's and got ice cream, which was fun.

then we all took the MRT home and Isaac's parents gave me a lift home from Newton MRT which was very nice of them.

the cupcakes I took home are kind of irreparably squashed so we're giving away/selling the spare ones at home and keeping the squishified ones. =)

yay cupcakes..

I think the GSA is shaping up to be a Very Good Thing.

{ 11:20 pm }

Thursday, 16 September 2010.

oh god I hate the world.

today I opened my computer for TEN SECONDS to see whether there was any battery. there wasn't. for ten seconds, bittorrent was running on the background on my computer. now i have an email from some person who blocked me from the school internet connection until after I go see the IT office and do some sort of nonsense tutorial.

ten seconds, if that.

if i thought i deserved being sent an email about having my school internet blocked for the time being, I would be much less upset.

as it is, well, I think it's ridiculous.

and I certainly hope nobody from SAS is reading my blog like the NUSH teachers did every once in a while, because that would be completely uncalled-for and quite offensive given the rest of the monitoring going on.

meanwhile, the rainbow cupcakes I made at home look rather amateur.

AND. I. AM. SO. FURIOUS. ABOUT. THE. INTERNET.

{ 10:40 pm }

today was a fun day.

but it was also a day of Very Awkward Situations.

all the 11th-graders in Physics finding out I am a freshman and asking lots of questions and going "Ooh you're so smart!" and making me feel really horrendously criminally huge-headed no matter what I say because everyone is staring at me = very awkward situation.

going to buy homecoming tickets and finding out they're not for sale till tomorrow = somewhat awkward situation.

failing with giant art portfolio case on bus = somewhat awkward situation

wearing a sequiny purple dress because today is retro-themed and having to answer questions and adjust annoying pink necklace = slightly awkward situation

going to GSA meeting to bake cupcakes and not knowing anyone except Eash and being excluded from all the inside jokes and stuff and feeling out-of-place= VERY AWKWARD SITUATION.

not much really really happened today except that.

(the cupcake-making was fun! and they are RAINBOW COLORS! =D)

(I was in charge of yellow cupcake mix. which was sort of pointless because the cake mix was kind of yellow to start with.)

{ 7:01 pm }

Tuesday, 14 September 2010.

yesterday I got five compliments on my socks. =)

although the day was kind of rubbish given that I was stuck doing calculus late at night for extra credit and I'm pretty certain I got it wrong. ;_____;

handed it in anyway.

also I spilled soya sauce on the socks.

today I am dressed up as a nerd with black Korean-esque glasses painted on my face.

my eyes are itchy. this was probably not the most genius idea.

I am in free period which is a class period with no class so I am in the library after being kicked out once because my friend was eating a sandwich and then finishing my pretty blue and green and brown and incredibly scrawly and messy bio notes. at least the colours are nice!

one of my ears has been blocked all day.

and this morning my earphones weren't plugged in properly so when I tried to play my ipod the whole bus got blasted with random music for quite a while before someone pointed it out. then the ipod ran out of battery. it was a kind of embarrassing situation.

art club yesterday was fun! I painted bricks. as in, i painted in rectangles on a big piece of plywood to look like bricks, not applied paint to bricks. i painted reddish-brown bricks, purplish-brown bricks, and brownish-red bricks. yay bricks!

I have also made several new friends and my art homework is going well. life is not bad. =)

{ 9:36 pm }

Sunday, 12 September 2010.

this blog has been kind of deaded lately, which I take all the blame for.

went shopping with ri-chan and slept over at her house. =)

which reminds me, though, I am absolutely furious about something I am actually not allowed to talk about. THIS IS WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD. This is what is the ---ing problem is of our generation, life, and everything. The self-entitled self-centered evil idiots of this world ought to all hop onto an express cruise to antarctica so they don't bother any more actual human beings. HOW DARE THEY.

now that I have got that out of my system... =/

I have been watching Glee!

I am at episode 21. yay glee.

life, as always, is bothersome.

{ 9:10 pm }

Thursday, 9 September 2010.

half day today, no school tomorrow.

dammit i have to go and sms ri-chan because we are meeting tomorrow and i forgot to coordinate schedules with her. =/

{ 10:47 pm }

Wednesday, 8 September 2010.

today has gone HORRIBLY so far.

yesterday was awesome!

awesome awesome outing and barbecue and marshmallows and ToD with zuowei being hilariously loud and embarrassing poor yangzi. also also the satay was very random. does that make sense? no it doesn't. but it tasted like random satay. which is not a bad thing.

maybe because of the way it randomly floated out to the uno table

yay i won at uno

toasted marshmallows! =D

truth or dare was funny! and russell and i were sort of floating around being the 309 truth-or-dare squad.

and the tree! the tree was awesome awesome awesome. we all climbed up in this random sprawlinging tree. and then this bride and groom came happily skipping along and commandeered my tree. ;____;

our tree, that is.

and then it reached nine and we hung around until like nine-twenty and then realised we didn't know the way out.

whereupon we walked from Area F to like area D which took forever and ever and we were all over the road and the grass and there was no sidewalk and then we took an underpass to a condominium and walked around it and walked a longggg way to the bus stop and wandered around doing nothing all in the practically pitch dark and then crossed the road and then got on a bus and russell and isaac and i all squashed onto these two seats at the top of the top deck and then we got to tanah merah mrt which is like out near changi airport and thennnnnnnn the three of us switched to the red line at city hall and then isaac and i got out at newton station and he took this one bus and i took this other bus and then i got off at coronation plaza and then i walked across the road and walked home and if that sounds like a long sentence, it was a MUCH LONGER TRIP. it took from nine thirty to quarter past eleven. .___.

also, ri-chan cannot make it to my mom's Rosh Hashanah dinner. for which we have all these new pretty blue Polish plates.

but today was not fun theatre class had evil lights that changed colours and went here and there and were spookily headachily red and then i was all dizzy and had to go to the nurse's office. not an improvement.

then i stayed there on this nice comfy bed with a green fuzzy blanked over his head until theatre was almost over but got up because i figured i'd probably be okay and didn't want to miss anything except then my next class was Calculus which had a pop quiz which i'm pretty sure i flunked.

and now my subway sandwich is giving me much sorrow of the stomach.

today is not my lucky day.

{ 12:43 pm }

Monday, 6 September 2010.

I went and read more mike/kurt fanfic. smiley face. =)

meanwhile, I had a bio test today, which I hope went okay....

*is dying of sleepiness because of staying online till 11 because of online truth or dare which is fun anyway even if we only finished two or three rounds*

and now I have to rush the final touches to my fail fail messy art homework. ;______;

sleepy!!

{ 5:39 pm }

Sunday, 5 September 2010.

we exist too.

just saying, in case you'd forgotten or something.

sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating here. ;_____;

bio test tomorrow! wish me luck, people.

and and and 309 outing on tuesday. =)

I have started listening to Muse.

meanwhile, i am emoing, because it is never easy to be anyone anywhere.

{ 7:46 pm }

Friday, 3 September 2010.

purple carnation

cherry blossom, celandine

acacia, aconite, hollyhock.

{ 10:05 pm }

why do you want so badly to fight when I've been the one winning all this while?

also, made a quick visit back to the land of creative writing. thanks ri-chan for the inspiration. ;)

today my eye is all weird because I got lots of soap or something in it this morning.

it is blurry and most peculiar.

yay art, yay writing.

ri-chan is coming over on friday because of hari raya and we will watch movies and splash around in the plastic splash pool.

so far, in my classes, I have one A-, 3 As and 3 A+s.

these are very random and unrepresentative grades though.

so I won't actually know how I'm really getting along in those classes for a while yet.

but at least I'm not phailing miserably or anything.

yay, I guess. =D

{ 4:08 pm }

Thursday, 2 September 2010.

today I am envious of nice people.

I mean like really really plays-with-small-children infinitely-patient perfectly intelligent and humble and talented and pretty people. THEY ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO EXIST.

also, I got rickrolled.

gotta love facebook.

{ 7:57 pm }

at the moment there are three or four people whom I actively dislike.

which doesn't sound like much, but I was happier disliking nobody. =/

person 1, there's really nothing to say.

person 2 irritates and offends me by making copious use of Facebook to put his idiocy on public display.

person 3 told me today that I had to get off the theatre room sofa because I am a freshman and he is a sophomore and thereby he gets to sit down instead. (yes, mister, you're nine months older than me, so you are thereby entitled to any remotely comfortable surface in the room. =____=)

person 3 1/2 just annoys me.

have I forgotten anyone? xD

some day I'll be more positive and write about the people I like. although that would make for a much longer and more rambly post. D=

{ 4:41 pm }