Sunday, 26 July 2009.

I hate being useless.

Doesn't everyone?

I was going to write about how Claire is a much better person than I've given her credit for, but then again, Yoru-senpai is also a much better person than I've given him credit for. Even Vivian.

Actually, I haven't given anyone enough credit, which is especially ironic now that you look at the situation and I turn out to be the excess baggage that nobody really needs.

Vivi got rather pissed at me Thursday, but I don't mind, because the more she sticks up for herself the better. Around her, it's like I'm the kind of egotistic hyper freak that would walk all over the world without noticing that it didn't want to be a doormat. ^_____^;;;;;;;

Speaking of which, she can't come to my party. Why do all these people keep pulling out at the last minute?!?! Awa can come, Ri-chan can come, Shasha and Joey can probably make it too. On the other hand, Vivi and So Phia and Pinky-chan can't, for some unknown reasons (except that Pinky-chan has to go to her aunt's housewarming) and- get this- I FREAKING FORGOT TO INVITE NAOMI!!!!!!!

....now I really feel bad.

Plus, why do people like Twitter?
(I have to get my Chinese homework done before noon and I lost the newspaper I was supposed to get the info out of. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;)

Isn't it stupid how one can analyze manga plots hollow and figure out where everything really fits, how everyone really works, but in real life the grand scheme of things is always somewhere completely out-of-reach and it's only when you get a glimpse that you realise how wrong you've been about everything?

I'm mildly depressed now, which means I'm in a good mood for writing or drawing stuff (it's only when I'm disillusioned with my bouts of manic hyper egotism that I can actually recognise the flaws in my work and work on improving) but Chinese homework still has to be done first.

aaaargh.

If I've let anyone down, I'm sorry.

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